My parents and three siblings are packing to move to Texas at the end of this month. None of my family has ever lived anywhere but California, so this is a huge transition for us. As if the transition of moving was not challenging enough, I am 19 years old and just discovered that I am pregnant with a baby boy. Being pregnant this young is frightening by itself, but being pregnant and moving away from what is familiar and my entire support system is even more terrifying. I am still learning who I am –still trying to step into my career path, still growing as an adult, still fixing bad habits and adjusting into the woman I want to be. Now I will have to do all of that while raising another person that I am completely responsible for, and that is forcing me to expedite my own process of growth much faster than expected. Although I am nervous and have very few answers, my faith has increased greatly in God.
I am young and still growing, and because this is all new to me, I have no choice but to lean on God and depend on Him to order my steps and help guide me through all of these changes –despite my fears and frustrations. I am blessed to be able to conceive, and I am blessed that God has chosen me to care for his son. I want to care for that gift and honor it. When I first found out I was becoming a mother, I had no clue how to tell my parents. I most feared telling my father. I expected to get dismissed, but my Dad handled it very well and made me feel comfortable to speak with him. He made it clear that he had my back through this new journey. I think what really makes me even more excited for my baby is that my dad is so excited to be a grandpa. To anyone in a similar position, I encourage you to release all fear and anxiety, and trust God! Pray for his guidance through it all because he controls the future, and trust that He will come through for you. I am already seeing Him do that for me just at these beginning stages, and I know that He will continue to do so throughout my entire process.
